I think the single greatest challenge so far in my life as a christian has been compartmemtalizarion. And I imagine others may have the same challenge, so I'm going to blog about it. To really do the topic justice, though, I need to first talk about Fruedian, behavioural, and cognitive psychology.
Originally the field of psychology was dominated by Freudian theories, which were vast and attempted to explain why high society women might become hysterical. Each of his theories had a few important traits:
- The theories attempted to be dispassionate and scientific
- They were based on an assumption that (strange) behaviours could be explained by hidden thought processes in a person's mind. Call these processes P, for "person".
- It was impossible to prove whether they were true or false (they were not falsifiable).
Behaviorism was the next movement in the field, which sought to apply more intellectual and scientific rigour to psychology to increase its usefulness. For instance, it was discovered that if a button was set up to randomly produce food or not, pigeons would peck the button until they exhausted themselves. The field was characterized by two big changes from earlier Freudian theories:
- These theories were based instead on the assumption that all behaviours could be explained by features if the environment: the context you were in at the moment the behaviour occurred (e.g. church, a pub, etc), socialization with peers and family while growing up, or maybe even the clothes you were wearing. Things like that. Call these factors E, for environment.
- Crucially, and why behaviourism was a big step forward from Freud, every theory was fasifiable. That meant experiments could be run to disprove or build confidence in a theory.
The third movement happened much more recently, and I'm calling it cognitive psychology. This was a move to extend behaviourism to include human's internal processes and thoughts, while still trying to maintain rigorous falsifiability. Its hard to do! Let's call these internal thoughts P, for person.
So the model that was drilled into me in my psychology couraes in university was P x E. That is, behaviours should be seen as being caused by internal thoughts and factors (the person), external factors (the environment), or both.
So how does this apply to living out my faith? I learned about compartmentalized faith when i was 16, but I've been thinking about it much more deeply recently. I became a Christian at a church camp. My thoughts, words, and deeds were all impressively faithful during my time there. I'm so grateful hat i was influenced by church camp.
But as we know, it's a tired complaint that Christians are faithful on Sundays but are invisible as Christians the rest of the week. That's part of what I'm saying here. But I think it goes deeper. I think the reason I feel closer to God on a soccer field at camp than in a church pew during the year is that during rhe year I am exposed to so many more contexts. In particular:
- Church
- Work
- Home
- With family
- With frienda from high school or university
- Meeting a Chinese citizen or another expat here in Beijing
- Meeting a fervently faithful American at church here in Beijing
I know there are more contexts in my life, but these are the most illustrative of my point. For each of these contexts (note they don't include church camp, where my faith took root), I have to go through a few steps just to begin identifying myself in my head as a Christian!
- Read the bible and pray while thinking about issues and problems from that context
- Say a prayer (even if it's quick and silent) while in that context
- Thank God for a blessing from that context
This is like a bare minimum! And its still unlikely I'll be talking about faith with my friends from that context. I still need to "come out" as a Christian in each context, and ideally gauge people's reactions, before even talking openly about it.
I think compartmentalization is easily confused with cowardice - I'm just not courageous enough to share my faith with all my friends. But that's not really it. I think framing a faith struggle as one journey, from sinner to saint, ignores a crucial part of my psychology. I've got 7 or more simultaneous journies, and I'm at a different spot in each one.
I really welcome comments on this entry. This is something I've been thinking about a lot as I try to keep growing in my relationship with God.